open ears and closed doors

In the silence I hear the most,

Feeling the cold rains of mid November burn my soul.

The lucidity of this life becomes so clear,

Opening the door on my past.

Wanting to feel again,

The warmth of the love I once knew.

To hear voices of my past surrounding me.

Rendering me helpless,

Asking me for help

To feel the void of my now desolate life

Wanting to silently escape.

Let me go to sleep in my Silent Lucidity...

Bleeding Heart

Come to my door,

My heart aches for the love I need.

Death seems to be the only alternative.

My heart bleeds,

My body aches to feel your touch.

'I want to be with you night and day'

Love me for all I am.

November rain

In the cold rain of November

I held the lite of my heart in my hands

I held it for you and only you.

The rain washed away the pain I held for you

And the warm winds of change blew threw my door.

I walked through the cold rain as time stood still.

Till he came and mended my broken heart.

The rain in my heart dried and it began to beat again.

Now he holds my heart in his hands.

Bound to him with all my love I will forever be.

The November rain cant hurt me no more.

Seduced from afar

From afar I watch you,

Loving you with all my heart

Not able to speak to you,

You not knowing,

Wanting to touch you,

Wanting to feel you

Longing to taste your kiss,

You've seduced me from afar

eyes unfocused

How small is our world
when from far and wide
we meet those so close to us.
how painful is life
when love surrounds us
yet is beyond our reach.
The heart is a melodic character
beating in time with the world
yet time and time again
it skips a beat
throwing the world to the wind.
a glimmer of beauty
in a speck of time
can stop my heart in an instant..

the instant my eyes had focused
on beauty such as yours
melted my frozen heart.
through the confusion
my lust increased
and set my mind into a whirlwind.
i did not know right from wrong
until i heard the song
of the love of my life
only sitting to my right.
leave me oh siren of the seas
let me live in my unrest
let my lust subside
before i can no longer live tied down.

From nite till day
all week long,
I think of you
and want my way.
waiting impatiently
to caress your
ridgid body..
hoping how you will react.
wanting to feel your
Heated touch across my
feverish skin..
day dreams leading to
thoughts unleashed..
feelings so strong yet
untamed..
only your touch will reign in my desire.

from this moment

from this moment till then,
my mind will wonder,
wishing to feel just one minute touch.
my lips ache to feel
the softness of yours.
the sweetness of your kiss,
leads to thoughts unsettling..
my body longs to feel the
fire from your fingers.
my own fingers
burn with the desire,
to feel your skin.
your face,
your heart,
the core of your soul...
my life feels incomplete
without the ability
show you how my desire burns

deep into the darkness

alone in darkness of my restless mind,
deep in despair,
falling ever faster into
the vastness of depression.
desperate for a touch of warmth..
a touch of love.
into the deep i fall
ever faster ever deeper.
looking up to see the light
that once surrounded me.
once but not now,
perhaps never again.
Abandoned in solitude,
looking for the accompaniment
i once took solace in.
this isolation has left me cold
and in fear.
will the romance, the fire,
return to this cold heart of stone
i now possess?
or will the frozen soul
i now possess
be the only companion
that i am condemned to endure....

Loves desire lost

love fleeting in a moment of time
love of the small things.
wanting to caress your soft skin under my fingertips,
wanting to taste your sweet lips on mine..
the desire to feel your strong naked body next to mine
has corrupted every thought of my living soul.
wanting to know if u are wanting the same?
my life hath changed in just an instant,
and with all my strength i can not return it to the way it was.
the enchantment that you hold over me is only increased
even as i sleep.
I fear the time that i am in close proximity
to the body i want to caress..
will i be able to hold myself together?
will you taunt me to no end..
only time will seek to give me the answers i so desperately need..

an unbroken heart

i used to think my heart was full,
i used to think i was complete,
i used to think i couldn't be any happier.
the you came into my life,
from the moment i looked into your eyes,
and held you in my arms,
I felt as if my heart would explode,
the joy that you over filled me with,
streamed down my cheek,
in little rivers of pride.
then for the second time my heart was busted wide open.
not able to hold the love i feel..
twice in as many years my heart was raked with the pain of not being able to contain itself.
i look back now and know that my life was never complete until now.
never had i known i could love so much with out anything in return..
and here i sit again w streams of loving pride falling down my cheeks,
loving you both w every ounce of my being

Grey Flames

the skies are grey in the world today,
but black are the clouds in my soul.
the fire that once burned bright
now is just left as smoldering embers.
gloomy are the thoughts in this dark pit of self pity.
how beautiful are the darkened bottles that lie around me,
but how sad that no life lies within them.
how much my life feels like these poor sad friends who lie here.
come add the log to the fire and make me burn again.
give me the warmth i had till the mists of pessimism snuff it out.
quickly before the icy catacomb takes hold of my heart,
before no fire will reignite this empty saddened soul,
and the life that once burned for all to enjoy is extinguished for good

Broken n Bleeding

my heart bleeds the life i once knew.
my soul has froze over never to be warmed again.
shattered are the dreams that once i had
my empty eyes stare into the nothingness of each day that passes
and spill tears filled with the remains of my happiness
broken is my spirit that once thrived on adventure
someone please attempt to rescue me
put the fire back in my eyes
quickly before the remains of my life are snuffed for good

you

alone i sit with my thoughts
in the silence, darkness all around
im reminded of the emptiness i feel,
from the coldness from where your touch once was.
the memory of your kiss,
haunts me still
wanting to feel it once again..
will my life move on from this tired circle its running.
will your memory stop haunting me?
teased with the promise
the nectar which i crave,
ill run my chained path from now till its over..

for you

for you i wait with baited breath
for the moment i will see you again
to feel your touch
to feel your kiss.
for you I waitin my secret world
for when we can be as one
to feel you next as we sleep
to wake up an kiss you as you sleep.

Darkened Skies

dark are the clouds surrounding my soul
raining drops falling from my eyes
the salvation i desire far from reach
desperate am i to feel your touch
to hear your whispers of comfort
shining the light across the storm filled skies
of the darkest corners of my being
the fire you hold warming me to the core
with the slightest of smile.
knowing my life hath the meaning it once held
wanting you with me here
unable to find my way
the smallest of words can save or shatter my fragile shell...
help me before i drown in the swells from the storm
as it grows in intensity..
the darkest always before the light
as long as i can hold on...